passing moments that hurt

I'm angry at all the men in my life, every single one of them. Not that I have had any "rights" or expectations, but you could all do better, couldn't you?

But of course, I'm just angry, and this is a passing moment, not a paralyzing one. I'll get over it tomorrow that i wake up and go back to work.

I sometimes think about my present situation, a situation in which I can have only part of a man I love at occasional moments and I feel like I don't have any options to change the situation. I think I don't have an option because neither his situation could change nor I can get  him out of my system (i.e. I love him and getting him out of my life will hurt, so I don't.) but oh well, still there are always options of different nature, and I do have the option to give up on him. So, if I don't is because I have "chosen" not to.

I nag and complain here a lot, but this is a special space, this is the space for me to write and get rid of all the thoughts and feelings that bother me. Writing heals and to me writing a low-key blog has always been like therapy. So, please if you're my close friend don't get worried reading here (and don't get annoyed by my negative "chos naaleha".) I'm alright, if you know me you know that I'm a fighter. As I said above, these are just passing moments, not paralyzing ones.